I feel selfish. I feel selfish and stupid and ridiculous for feeling the way that I am. So many people have it so much worse than me. But then again, that doesn’t change how I have it. Just because someone else is hurting more than me doesn’t mean that I’m not genuinely hurting. And I really am. I know that I fall far too fast and far too hard, it’s always been that way. And if I care about you once, I will care about you forever. I still give dirty looks to anybody that even talks to the boy who kissed me in the 8th grade. Every ex of mine thinks of me only as just that- an ex, a crazy one probably, but in my eyes they’re so much more than that. They’re stuffed animals and Hello Kitty shirts and little pink bikes with a basket on the front. They’re pieces of me, things that I once loved and wanted to spend all of my time with. Things that put me on top of the world. They’re that big girl necklace that my mother finally gave me, the one that I wanted to wear everywhere and when I lost it I thought that my happiness had gone right along with it. And nothing would ever be the same. Those things are my ex boyfriends and past lovers and heartbreaks. And I love them all the same as I once did. And the worst part of it all is that they aren’t lost like the necklace or worn out like the stuffed animals or too small like the bike or shirt- they’re right there, growing along with me and changing as I am, but they’re just out of my reach. They are lost in a way entirely different than my childhood prepared me for, they are lost because they don’t want me to find them. But I keep looking because I hope that one day they will want to be rediscovered and we will be greater than before and I will finally feel that cold chain against my neck again, and I will feel safe, and I will never be empty again.

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b-um asked: you havent posted in a long time!:(

I know! I SUCK. I’m really sorry, college is very time consuming! I’m also thinking about turning this into a twitter because I got a new computer and it’s much easier to tweet than to make a whole picture.

freedandbeckham asked: I just wanted to let you know that this is one of the best blogs I've seen on Tumblr. You seem like a very helping and happy girl, we need more people in this world like you! (: I hope after giving all this advice to everyone that you have someone to give advice to you! You're blog has helped me a lot, so just taking some time to say THANK YOU! ♥

Thank you so much for saying this! <333

Anonymous asked: Heey, I'm a guy, and I literally would do everything for my future girlfriend. :) I was just wondering if you think there are any girls out there that prefer being called beautiful over sexy, would wear my jacket on a cold night, fall asleep in my arms whilst watching their favourite movie, smile when I send them a text every morning saying good morning beautiful :'). I'm not like most guys that try these things on their girlfriends to sleep with them, I would do them just to see her smile. :)

Any girl with a brain would love to have a guy like you! You are amazing and rare and special and on behalf of all females- never change!

Anonymous asked: you are beautiful ♥

Not as beautiful as you :)

Anonymous asked: Are you and Liam still together? If so post a picture of you two?!

Noo we broke up when I went to college!

sue-blog asked: 28 & 29. :)

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The cutest thing anyone has ever done for me- My boyfriend once sent me a whole package full of all of my favorite things and foods and some of his clothes and love notes. He was the sweetest :)